Smothered

It has been a while, at least a couple of years, since I've had this bad of a headache. I think it has to do with the fact that I had about 2 straight hours of thinking, whilst paying attention to the students making their exam so they couldn't cheat. This last one was easy since I know quite a lot of the body language signs someone makes when they're preparing to cheat and whenever that happened I walked over to them and stood there overlooking the others as well. With this method, if they actually went ahead and cheated, I would've caught them red-handed. Problem is I had too much time to think about my life, the people in it, where I'm headed, why I want what I want, who my true friends are and so on. 

I am rethinking everything and feeling more and more the need to just move out of this country. Yes country, not just the city. I feel like leaving everything and everyone behind and start a new adventure somewhere else, somewhere I haven't been, somewhere where I don't know anyone yet. I am aware that I have this need because I feel smothered by everyone around me. I feel like everyone feels the need to tell me how to live my life. And I guess today felt as if the last straw was taken. I even missed my stop twice on my way home and I lost my public transport card, all because of the headache and the continuous thoughts going through my head.

 

All I have to say is that change is definitely on it's way. 

I can't hardly wait!

<3