Last-minute move to NYC?

It's been a while since the last time I wrote here, moving house and work played a huge role in me not having any free time on my hands. But the busy times are almost over thankfully. In the meantime a peculiar dream I've had last night:

I was in New York City bummed out because we just heard from the head of our department that the entire hallway from work will be moving to NYC. Now the reason I was bummed out was that I just moved and had to pay so much money for the floors and new furniture and just NOW he mentioned 2 weeks in advance that the entire hallway will move to NYC and continue research there. Why he couldn't tell us earlier remained a mystery for me. So yeah, I was the only one who was bummed out and not enjoying scouting for a new location for the lab. I wondered why my other colleagues who just bought a new house weren't bummed. Anyway, we walked into a building on Times Square that the head of the department was interested in. It was an interesting setup for a lab. Clear floors with yet no tables and in each of the corners there were 5 desks, but the corners weren't set up logically. So I doubted whether this would work out for a good lab setting. I was just very upset about the last minute move... I finally moved to a nice place and then 3 weeks later I can move again... Great. Just great...

Image taken from google

A lab on a beach

It's been quite a while since I've written down a dream I've had. I either didn't have the time to sit down and forgot afterwards, or I only remembered vague parts, so it made no sense to write them down. But here is a short one! Even though it felt very long in the dream itself...

I was working in a lab near the ocean in the US (since the entire dream was in US english). The benches were also on the beach, which was a normal thing in this dream. I was working on an experiment and someone else was working next to me. After a while I noticed he was just standing there doing nothing. So at first I figured he's just thinking, but this went on for a while. So I turned to him and asked what's up? To which he smiled and said nothing while he walked away. I was wondering whether I scared him off? He is known for being a very shy person and also pretty distant. Either way, other colleagues came in as I was finishing my work and we went for a run on the beach. It wasn't a very nice beach, a lot of pieces of wood and seaweeds and some bigger rocks here and there, so we had to be careful, because we wore no shoes. 

I was then alone on a side of the beach and enjoyed the view of the ocean, when I saw that shy dude fishing. I was thinking about going up to him and talk or not. I didn't want to scare him off, but he seemed like someone who would have an interesting point of view in life and therefor I figured we might have some really cool discussions. Then it got very crowded and I was back in the lab and I lost the sight of him. There were only people around me I didn't know and I couldn't get out because of the crowd. I started panicking and pushed some people aside so I could move in the crowd towards a door, only to realize this was a beach, there aren't any doors here. And I woke up. 

Image taken from google, it looked the most like the beach from my dream.

Being chased by criminals in Australia

Another 'wtf' type dream. A longer one this time...

I was on vacation with a group of friends in Australia and we were backpacking and going through a very rocky landscape. We came by a spot where the group could sit comfortably and so we sat. I at at the end and wondered why my ex was traveling with the group since he didn't know anyone there but me. And to my utmost annoyance, he sat across me. I tilted my head to the ground (kind of like my dogs do when they don't wanna look at you) because I just did not want to greet him. Then I figured I was being childish so I looked at him and greeted him, and he greeted back in a very condescending way. I was irritated. There was a discussion going and my mom was the centre point of it. I had no idea she was also in Australia. Anyhow my ex decided to explain his point of view to her in french. Pfff, show-off! 

We decided to look for a hostel in that town, since we needed to cross 4 more towns to reach our backpacking goals. We stayed in an apartment and I slept in the girls' room with 5 other girls. The room was messy because of the little space and we all had to go through our backpacks to fetch the stuff we needed, so clothes everywhere along with beauty products and wallets. The next morning we took off and everyone did what they wanted to. I slept in and when I woke there was a girl I didn't know going through everyone's stuff. So I told her to give it back and get the hell out of here. She hid everything she had and backed up. I had no idea what to do, so I grabbed her and yelled at her to put the stolen stuff back. She didn't, she slipped out of my grip and ran off. 

Again the same situation happened only now she had only my stuff. Again no one of the others was there to help me out. And as she ran away a group of 4 men came in to stand up for her. I had no idea what to do, so I jumped out of the window, and ran. (Sadly my dreams are to that realistic point that I wasn't running fast and I was getting tired very quickly.) I decided to cut many corners and zig zag through the town. This didn't help since my pursuers were better at running corners and zig-zagging than I was. So I kept running in a straight line through a park where now I was being pursued by a car. Thankfully it was still distant. I ended up in the city centre and stopped running but walked and somehow walked along with a family who thought they knew me. They had to catch a train so I figured, I'll travel along with them. There was no sight of my pursuers so I kept calm. 

Once in the train I was relaxed and we talked a lot about quizzes and puzzles. 

I entered a party with the girl from the family, but we were having issues finding which room it was in. The building looked like a huge gym and we needed to be in B3. So we walked through all the gym equipment and then a volleyball field and just kept walking. We eventually found B3 and the party was indeed there. She found her friends and I lagged behind. I went ahead and sat on the stairs outside of that room to get some piece of what happened that day, when I saw a car coming fast. I froze and couldn't stand up, I just sat there like a deer in the headlight. These were my pursuers. How did they know I'd be here? They got out of the car and 2 of the men were twins and very bulky. The others acted like their parents. They got up the stairs and just passed me into the party talking about finding me and killing me. I fell off the stairs into the (suddenly there) pool that was beneath me and I woke up.

I was so tired when I woke up to this one... As if I've been actually running the entire time.

Image from google. This looks exactly like the park I've been running through and happens to be in Australia as well! So perfect picture for this post!

Crush lost my car (dream)

Blogging at my parents' place just is not working out for me :( I wanted to blog so much things but, yeah... Did not get the chance. Anyhow, the dream I just had:

I was in Boston (I tend to dream that often lately...) and I was walking around with a friend of mine I've had since primary school. We had to walk since a crush of mine borrowed my car. So I had to walk. We went to a gathering where he was as well, and after the gathering we walking together the three of us, he was walking a bit faster and I almost had to jog to keep up with him, resulting with my friend being left behind a bit. Either way we were walking to where he parked my car, but in the middle of it he said he was late for another place, so he gave me the keys and pointed in a general direction where he parked my car. 

So my friend and I walked to the parking lot, only to not find my car. It was an old black car and there were many so I had to look carefully if one of these were mine. None of them were. So we walked further, so far that eventually we were at my house. Still no car. My friend told me to call him and demand that he shows me where he parked my car, since he borrowed it. But I was hesitant to do so. I did not want to bother him. It would be fine, I was just not looking hard enough. 

And I woke up. Issue is, that this does state my personality a lot. I am trying to stand up for myself more, but in the environment I am in now, this is almost impossible :( But I did stand up for myself today :) It's a start in the right direction! 

Happy holidays!! 

 

Spooky nightmare

Yup I had a pretty intense nightmare last night, whereby I woke up all icky and sweaty and scared and afraid to fall asleep again even though my eyes did not want to stay open, which made it all more scary for me somehow. Aaaanyway let's get this story typed out now!

I was talking to my supervisor in Amsterdam about job opportunities and he mentioned a group in New York that performed excellent research in retrotransposon activity. Well I did prefer to do my research in GBM, but this sounded very cool as well, so I agreed to it. Catch was I would live in a student zone in NYC, I didn't mind since I'm used to that and as long as I have a place to stay in the beginning I'm happy. I figured I can always look for a different place there if it didn't suit me.

I was in NYC, walking down the street, it was daylight and very busy with many students running around and throwing with water balloons and having fun. 

Picture from google

I was with my sister and we just bought/rented (?) a house outside of the city. I didn't mind having to travel over an hour to work as long as I had a nice place to rest (doesn't sound like me here...). The garden was dead and the house looked like something from the 60's. But hey, my sister was happy with it and I didn't mind. Then the weird stuff started. There was

a lot of wind sometimes in the middle of the house, weird sounds... I remember talking to my dead dog and being happy that she was at my side and protecting me. I also had to tell my parents that she was very thankful for the life she had living with them. I was starting to worry that now that I openly accepted the link I had with my dog's spirit that maybe other spirits would also show, perhaps the bad kind. This scared me.

The weird stuff in the house continued, I got locked up in the washing room and could not get out. I screamed and kept hitting and kicking the door and called for my sister who was just in the other room, and all of a sudden she opened the door, like it was never locked. She never heard me, just wondered why I was taking so long. So we figured at that point that we're dealing with an evil spirit. She went to the bathroom and my parents came by to check on us. I kept looking at the bathroom's door, since I did not trust the silence, but my parents were not worried. My sister took very long so I decided to check it out, only to find that she was hung by the chain from the toilet. She was dead. 

We were all very shocked and because it was getting dark we figured to all sleep in the same bed so we'd be by each other's side. I then had an out of body experience where I saw the phone-cord choking all 3 of us at the same time, when I saw us waking up, I woke up from the nightmare. 

What also scared me was that my teddy bear positioned so it was looking at me. It always sat at the exact same spot so this is just normal, but at that moment I had to place the bear somewhere else. It's been a while since I've had a nightmare like this, and my morning was not fun because of it! So I was happy I was meeting a friend in the city. 

Desperate in some hotel

Yes! Another dream I've had! Here goes:

Taken from google, it was the one that looked the most like what I saw in my dream

I was in this hotel with a bunch of people I know, but aren't really friends with. You know the kind. Either way I saw my ex there and chatted up with him. I felt very lonely there since no one would talk to me and I really wanted someone to be at my side. I had the idea he was still into me so I decided to get back together. He was happy but he got right back in his selfish and jealous ways, not wanting me to do anything without him, even though he never wanted to join any activities with the group. The next day I chatted up with some people and it was great. I felt again that I made a big mistake taking him back again, so I went to the hotel, got to our room and started packing my stuff to move to a different room. He entered the room and brought with him his parents to tell them the news. Can you say awkward? There I was frozen with almost all my stuff packed. His parents disappeared (it's a dream, mine aren't always that realistic) and he started being very angry. I apologized and explained it was a bad mistake, that I didn't love him and I was lonely and at the time wanted to believe I had feelings for him. He threw me out. I didn't care and just took my stuff and walked in the sand (it was at some beach). There were some cute little apartments or condos and my new-made friends were there, so I joined them and asked if there was a free one there for me. There was and I started unpacking my stuff in the one that was left free. It was pretty big with my own kitchen, bathroom, etc. The only thing was that the air conditioner was on very high and the condo was very cold! I went outside and joined the group for some activities on the beach.

My alarm woke me up, and I felt so guilty that I didn't even felt bad in the dream that I used my ex that badly. Glad it was a dream and not reality! Although the beach was very nice!

<3 

I didn't know I was a vampire? ~Dreams

Aaaaand here's another freaky dream I've had. Again I decided to write it down much later, because it's still nagging at my head and I didn't feel like opening up my blog to write it all down when I woke up. Anyway here goes:

I was in some sort of camp with old buildings that were falling apart. We were in a hall with several dusty tables and a blackboard where a hairy teacher was explaining the facts about being a vampire. He pointed at me and said that I was the perfect example of someone who was a vampire but still didn't believe in them. I responded with that I don't drink blood, I age, and I can't run very fast. I am human. To which his response make me ponder my existence. His response was: 'You've told us you've been feeling very tired the last year, sometimes you've been feeling more energetic. These times were all when you've had raw meat. The blood in there made sure you got your energy. Next to that you're a night person. You have no problems working at night. You can feel the mood people are in and you notice many things going on around you before they actually are. Your dreams are also too vivid for a plain human being. We are not immortal like in the movies, we are just evolutionized in a certain way that we differ from humans. There are also werewolves out there. Those are the ones that have a lot of muscles and have very low IQs. They don't have to be hairy or change into wolves. The wolf comes from the fact that they have an affinity with dogs.' 

Yeah I didn't say much from there, and I was basically confused. What is going on? I don't know anyone here, how did I get here? There was a loud bang outside and we all ran out. 

I was fighting a werewolf now, like the ones from the movies and not at all like the teacher explained them to be. The fighting also went just like in the movies, very violent, only difference was that I was also discussing with that werewolf whether I was a vampire. The wolf thought I was but I still didn't buy it. It's all just bullshit. 

Then I was running inside one of the buildings trying to escape something. I had no idea what, but I ran fast (for a change, because usually in dreams I run painstakingly slow). I turned around and I was alone. 

Then I woke up.  Maybe I should do what Stephenie Meyer did with twilight and make a lot of money by making this small piece in 5 books. I mean, we apparently have vampires and werewolves in there anyway... But that does mean more writing for me to do huh? Maybe another time... 

<3

Painting from Luis Royo, who used to be one of my favorite artists about 8 years ago. I think it suited this post :)

Why did I wake up? ~awesome dreams

Okay I remember 2 dreams I had last night and with both of them I was annoyed that I woke up.

First 1:

I was walking around some sort of outside mall, it looked vaguely like the navy yard in Boston, but yet different with more terrasses and the floor was made from matted marble. I was alone, but knew my parents and some friends were meeting me at one of the terasses. I saw a french supermarket with all the great food I was missing like crazy, so I went ahead and entered this supermarket (this one reoccurs a lot in my dreams... I am french food obsessed). I saw my favourite items and looked in my wallet to find out I had no cash on me, and I knew that they would

not accept my bank cart at that place. But conveniently there was an ATM in the entrance of the store so I went ahead to get some cash from my account. The screen looked weird before I started and I figured let me press the transit button so everything looks normal before I stick my card in the machine. So I pressed the button, and the machine made a weird slushing noice, and out came a lot of money! I checked really quick but I didn't want to go through it all because I did not want to cause attention, so I quickly put it in my wallet and even then I heard someone say 'wow thats a lot of money, she's so lucky!' I looked around me but there was no one there who seemed distressed that they've lost their money. I thought if the bank would know who took it, but I didn't enter my cart... So the money's mine! I took 1 of the biggest carts and started putting yummy food in it and went ahead to pay at the register.

Then I was walking outside on the matted marble again, and I heard a familiar voice calling me... I was annoyed, I did not want to talk to this person because he's basically an asshole and he probably wanted to rub the fact in my face that he has a PhD position, and I still don't. So I turned around said hi, and told him I'm in a hurry. He was there with his parents and a smirk on his face. I just sped off. (this actually happened 2 weeks ago with the same person and his parents, so way to go dream with bringing back annoying memories!) I found my parents and told them I bought the food and that I will pay for lunch etc. -and I woke up in the middle of my sentence when I proudly told my parents that I had a lot of money. I wanted so badly to fall asleep again so I could go shopping in my dreams!!! At least there I had money!! Oh well :)

French supermarket I found on google :)

Second dream:

I was working my last ever shift at the supermarket store (where I have worked in the past). I was rearranging some toys so kids could get to them easier, and looking out for the tiger, the panther and the lion that were walking in the store. This always happened when we wanted to close, so people would leave faster. I was by the fruit department where there was also a door towards the back of the store where we kept boxes only. I saw the panther in the corner of my eye looking at me and I figured I had to take action before it ate me, and tricked it into that room. The panther actually spoke to me and said it felt sorry that I didn't trust him, he only wanted to mess around. I answered that I preferred to be safe and closed the door behind me. I went over to a colleague and saw that the lion was lazily sleeping in a corner of the store. What  kept me on guard was that I did not see the tiger anywhere... But I started to talk to the colleague and the store closed, so I figured that I'd go home. Went to the bar (??) and walked in the middle to only having to say goodbye 1 time. So i said that this was my last night but I'll pass by again to see them. I got no answer, so I felt kinda awkward, but I left with 2 colleagues. One of them was annoying because she was not listening to me whatsoever. She said she's gonna apply officially for the job and that they will hire her. (We were working there through another company) I told her I tried to do so, but they told me it was too expensive, and I worked more hours than her so she would probably get the same answer. She said that that will never happen and they will hire her for sure, and she just kept talking away. I did not want to walk with her much longer so I was happy that the other colleague had to walk a different way. This was not the way I took to my place, but it should work. Usually my bus stop was just around the corner from the store. Anyway I walked with her and it was a long walk, I walked around the same place where I used to live during my time in Boston, passed it and we ended up far outside the living world. There were fields and trees and it looked very pretty. A bus stopped and she said I had to get on that bus, she got on a different one. I figured the bus would go my way eventually since they all end up at the same place. I sat by the window and enjoyed the view, thought to myself that I finally got to see some parts outside Boston. I was very relaxed, but the bus did go further and further in the opposite direction where I had to go... The thought to exit at the next stop and take the next bus back entered my head, but I didn't want to have to wait an hour for the other bus, so I figured I'll just sit in the bus and take the entire tour and enjoy the scenery. I was looking outside and heard my phone ring... I woke up because my phone was ringing... I didn't answer because it was 8am, and well, just no! 

Googled Boston scenery and this was the picture that popped up which looked the most to what I saw in my dream. 

<3

Studying and in a party-act?! (Sep 28, 2013)

Yup, another entry in my (weird) dream-diary...

I went to some good friends of my parents' with my laptop and study-books to go writing at their place, because, well, I had to study. So I knocked on their door and as they opened they were (as always) very happy to see me, and when I told them I needed to write, if I could write at their place because I can concentrate better there, they happily showed me 3 rooms I could sit in that was better suited for studying, but of course I could sit anywhere. They offered cookies, chips, drinks etc. I sat down at one of the bigger tables in one of the rooms which was across the stairs. I don't know whether this was a room, but either was it was a nice place to write: cozy and clean and enough table space. I unpacked, took out my laptop and just when I wanted to start writing, I heard someone walking in the hallway and then saw the person, who happened to be my ex, stopping in his tracks looked at me shocked and then acted like nothing happened, like I wasn't there and continued walking down the stairs and headed towards the kitchen. This was going to be very awkward, but then again, he should be able to handle me there. We're all grown ups, even though he still lives at home. I sort of forgot that these were his parents (not true in real life). I continued writing with my laptop.

I was offered some chips and some drinks again, and then it was time for a party. At first it was supposed to be a party for me, but only 1 person I knew showed up, and he was my ex's best friend. So I guess he came to support his friend. Either way after a while it was the friend's (birthday) party and more of my friends showed up, which kinda pissed me off because why didn't they show up when it was my party but arrived much later when it wasn't my party anymore?! Anyway we had to perform a play for the 'friend' and some girl I don't know kept shutting down all my ideas, and no one really know what to do. We had a long table that represented the time we were allowed to take for the act. So I thought why not make a couple of vines, then add them together in a movie editing program? It would be fun and vines are only 6 seconds so we'd have a lot of time left for other people's ideas! But no, the girl wasn't having it and after a while I gave up and went upstairs to continue studying, while overlooking the room with all the party people. The 'friend' had to give a speech after the first small act, but this speech was so boring I zoned out. Then after another set of acts he made his way to the table again to give a speech. I thought 'are you kidding me?! Another one?!' Either way I zoned out again.

Then apparently I have been featured in 1 of the plays and this other girl I didn't know came up towards me to tell me that my act was interesting in the beginning and apparently in the end, but because the middle was so boring, she zoned out and missed my sad face in the end. I realized they showed a videotaped play of me. I had a conversation with my ex in between and it went fine, so I was happy we could be normal again and no drama showed it's face. But then I started to worry that maybe I gave him false hope that I was interested in him again and wanted to give it another shot. Then I kinda got scared because what if I wanted to give it another shot? Did I become that desperate?!

The people from the party were all gone and I was sitting at my laptop again, but surrounded in christmas decorations and a christmas tree in front of me. The man of the house offered me a pack of chips which was opened awkwardly so you'd have to eat it all in 1 go. I didn't mind to do that so I took it, he laughed and mentioned he was counting on me to eat it all.

And I woke up.

<3

Comedy dance university in Boston?! (Sep 21, 2013)

Yes I had another dream and I wished I actually typed it as soon as I woke up. Either way it was one of those dreams where the locations change and filled with randomness.

The university started and I was amongst many other students I didn't know waiting for the introduction ceremony whereby the professors introduced themselves with a comedic sketch or some funny anecdotes. It was a very fancy ceremony, everyone was dressed in gowns and tuxedos. It felt like the oscars from back in the day where everyone was dressed very classy. Anyway, 1 female teacher started talking and she had a list with her. She said that some people here would have to prove that they are indeed smart. She had a list. So she called 5 people including me, with a nasty comment after my name saying 'ooooh, someone was at Harvard so this person has to be smart! Let's test this out!'. I froze of course.

Then we were backstage getting ready to perform a freestyle dance show that was planned last minute to fill in half time of the ceremony. It was also an audition. It felt like one of those auditions from the show 'so you think you can dance'. Well I was nervous but more in my element. We were up.

Next I watched myself dance on a tv screen right after my group was done, but I didn't recognize myself. I knew I was wearing gold glitter pants with a black and gold glitter sweater on top (it looked awesome!) but the person dancing in those clothes did not look anything like me... That person was obese to say the least but somehow very light on her feet... It did not make sense...

Then I was in my old apartment in Boston, only to find out it was my sister's place. So I helped out with preparing lunch for my nephews and playing some games with them, but realizing that I will have a lot of explaining to do to my parents, and it was very awkward with my sister since we haven't spoken to each other in over 5 years. Somehow my nephews never aged or changed during that time.

I realized I had to get ready for a lecture from the same woman. I had to prepare my own stand up show, only I was not funny... So I made a speech about how human rights should be accomplished through dance. Performed that speech and somehow people found that hilarious and I aced it. I was very confused and irritated. Then another teacher (old man) came up to me and spoke to me that whatever I would do in that class I would fail because that teacher did not like students that may achieve something.

And I woke up...

<3

Getting married (Sep 20, 2013)

Hola!

I made a promise to myself to write down the dreams I've had for future entertainment, so here's the first one.

I was engaged with my ex whom I haven't really spoken to in 2 years apart from when we bumped into each other a year ago whereby he asked me if I wanted to marry him. Yeah we were broken up and it didn't work out, but we should get married anyway. Those were his words. I just shrugged and said yes. 

Half a year passed by without contact and we were supposed to get married in 2 weeks. So I called him casually and he did all the talking again saying we'll be fine, the marriage is absolutely still on. So I went wedding dress shopping alone and got a cheap one and proceeded with getting it all done. 

Two days before the wedding the guests already arrived and I was running up and down getting the tables ready, making sure the decorations are in order. The pillows haven't arrived yet (wtf?!) which was stressing me out because I needed those pillows. None of my friends were there, but I figured that they'd be there the day of wedding itself. There were already about 300 people there I didn't know, but they all seemed to be from the same hispanic family and they were always staring at me... Then I saw my to be husband and I was now really in doubt whether I wanted the wedding to happen or not. I didn't want to be twenty something and already divorced, but what if this was my only chance of getting married?! I needed that experience! He had his hair done and it kinda looked from the back like he was wearing a wig, but yet it was better than his usual hairdo so I was fine, I just hoped he'll have this the entire marriage because I could not handle to be with someone with his usual hairdo. Questions raised in my head such as do people really get married for love or for the price discounts in life? I wanted the discount... But I also wanted a happy marriage filled with love. That last one I wasn't going to get with him. He walked passed me at first, then turned around and said the wedding is on. And they were having a cheese fondue at his parents place the next day, so I should join. This freaked me out because for one thing I don't like cheese, and the second I don't get along with his mom at all and always feel outside of my comfort zone over there. Plus I still had so much to do for Sunday, the actual day of the wedding. So I said I had a shitload to do still, can't he see that?! Yes I was being bitchy, but I also figured why the hell not? I was a bride to a horrible person who never helped me, so I may play the bride-zilla card. He left then and I saw one of my friends arriving. Apparently it's Sunday already and the pillows are still not here. Guess I'll have to do without the pillows (still wtf?!). I started talking to her about my doubts but she wasn't hearing it. All I got was compliments on the venue and how pretty it all looked. I still had to get changed because I was wearing a cocktail dress. I wanted to look pretty while decorating the place (yeah, this really is sooooo me...). So I headed to the room prepared for me to get ready. I put on my wedding dress and hated it. I looked fat in it and it was uncomfortable and itchy and very tacky. Why was I going through with this? I didn't even know this person anymore... Though I didn't think he would have a changed at all in 2 years... He never really did. And where are my parents? Then I realized I forgot to tell them about it because in a place in my head I still thought this was a big joke. Oh shit...

Then I woke up. And the weird thing is when I woke up I actually smelled him. Freaky, but thankfully that didn't last long. 

<3 

Apparently wedding pillows are a thing though ;-)