Yup, another entry in my (weird) dream-diary...
I went to some good friends of my parents' with my laptop and study-books to go writing at their place, because, well, I had to study. So I knocked on their door and as they opened they were (as always) very happy to see me, and when I told them I needed to write, if I could write at their place because I can concentrate better there, they happily showed me 3 rooms I could sit in that was better suited for studying, but of course I could sit anywhere. They offered cookies, chips, drinks etc. I sat down at one of the bigger tables in one of the rooms which was across the stairs. I don't know whether this was a room, but either was it was a nice place to write: cozy and clean and enough table space. I unpacked, took out my laptop and just when I wanted to start writing, I heard someone walking in the hallway and then saw the person, who happened to be my ex, stopping in his tracks looked at me shocked and then acted like nothing happened, like I wasn't there and continued walking down the stairs and headed towards the kitchen. This was going to be very awkward, but then again, he should be able to handle me there. We're all grown ups, even though he still lives at home. I sort of forgot that these were his parents (not true in real life). I continued writing with my laptop.
I was offered some chips and some drinks again, and then it was time for a party. At first it was supposed to be a party for me, but only 1 person I knew showed up, and he was my ex's best friend. So I guess he came to support his friend. Either way after a while it was the friend's (birthday) party and more of my friends showed up, which kinda pissed me off because why didn't they show up when it was my party but arrived much later when it wasn't my party anymore?! Anyway we had to perform a play for the 'friend' and some girl I don't know kept shutting down all my ideas, and no one really know what to do. We had a long table that represented the time we were allowed to take for the act. So I thought why not make a couple of vines, then add them together in a movie editing program? It would be fun and vines are only 6 seconds so we'd have a lot of time left for other people's ideas! But no, the girl wasn't having it and after a while I gave up and went upstairs to continue studying, while overlooking the room with all the party people. The 'friend' had to give a speech after the first small act, but this speech was so boring I zoned out. Then after another set of acts he made his way to the table again to give a speech. I thought 'are you kidding me?! Another one?!' Either way I zoned out again.
Then apparently I have been featured in 1 of the plays and this other girl I didn't know came up towards me to tell me that my act was interesting in the beginning and apparently in the end, but because the middle was so boring, she zoned out and missed my sad face in the end. I realized they showed a videotaped play of me. I had a conversation with my ex in between and it went fine, so I was happy we could be normal again and no drama showed it's face. But then I started to worry that maybe I gave him false hope that I was interested in him again and wanted to give it another shot. Then I kinda got scared because what if I wanted to give it another shot? Did I become that desperate?!
The people from the party were all gone and I was sitting at my laptop again, but surrounded in christmas decorations and a christmas tree in front of me. The man of the house offered me a pack of chips which was opened awkwardly so you'd have to eat it all in 1 go. I didn't mind to do that so I took it, he laughed and mentioned he was counting on me to eat it all.
And I woke up.
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